He already knows…

A new “job” has been added to
my range of tasks here in Swaziland: 
it is profiling children. 
Among all the other tasks I have been working on since we arrived, I was
most excited about working on this one. 
It is basically collecting information about a child (approximately 25
questions which a Swazi communicates to the child) and then entering this into
a spreadsheet.  The information
then is collected and arranged for someone Stateside to make individual profile
packages for each child.  These are
then given to groups, churches, communities, etc. to find monthly financial
sponsors for each child.  Simple
new task…I love administrative type work:  entering data into a computer…Perfect match right? 

What I wasn’t counting on was
having to study, comprehend, and digest all of this information about these
precious children.  Simple
questions, such as these:

·      
Type of orphan?

·      
Age?

·      
Level of education?

·      
Number of siblings?

·      
Number of children living at home?

·      
Location of home?

·      
How many wives does/did father have?

 

…..keep
me awake at night.

 

       Some sample
answers to these questions are:

·      
Double orphan

·      
Age 12

·      
Preschool only

·      
10 Siblings

·      
16 Children at home

·      
30-45 minute walk from Care Point

·      
4 wives

 

Who
knew that such a simple task, would wrangle with my insides?  Who would have thought that I could
even be bothered by all of this information?  Who ever expected this to influence my day-to-day
business?  Who would have thought
this to completely change my view of everything I do?  Who knew that this would totally change who I really am?

….Only
God knew!

He knew that I needed to be changed.  He knew that my insides needed to be
turned up side down.  He knew that
I had gotten really comfortable with life.  He knew that I have a deep yearning for these children and
that I needed to be shaken up.  He knows my purpose here in Swaziland and
He knows the exact buttons to push to get me on fire.  He knows it ALL!

Matthew
6:7 says: “…for your
Father knows what you need before
you ask him.”

      Just because
something may be difficult or uncomfortable, we need to embrace it and ask
ourselves:  What is God trying to
teach me?  What do I really need to
change?  What lessons can I share
with others by going through this? 
How can I use thisuncomfortable situation to bring glory to Him?

      These profiling
questions and answers still get me stirred up, angry, and even teary eyed.  He doesn’t promise the journey to be
easy.  He doesn’t promise it to be
without pain.  He doesn’t promise
it to always to fun.  He does,
however, promise that no matter what, He
will be with us.  He is with us
through the good, the bad, and even the ugly!  No matter wherewe are or where we go, He is with us always!

    

  I have a new
attitude about my new job.  I
tackle it with a clearer understanding of “The Big Picture”- “His Picture”. I
know that he sees these beautiful children and is with them as well.  He knows their pain.  He knows their sufferings.  He knows their broken hearts.  He knows everything about them.

 Embrace
your difficult situations….He knows it all!